I Deserve Better

A rhyming poem about realizing my own value, and letting go of those who don’t value me.

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I hear the thoughts

In my head

Circling round and round.

No one likes you.

No one cares.

Tears roll without sound.

Stop being dramatic

I tell myself

But the evidence abounds.

*

When I pay the bill

They find the time

Their schedules magically free.

But calendars fill

And time dries up

When the only incentive is me.

I’m giving up

because I refuse

to beg on bended knee.

*

I’m there for you.

I give my time.

I give my heart and soul.

But when I ask

For a little back

Your time is now precious as gold.

I’ve played my hand

and you’ve played yours,

I think it’s time we fold.

*

You’re being selfish,

I tell myself

As I sit at home and cry.

But the more I say it

The angrier I get,

Because it’s a giant fucking lie.

I’m done with sorrow.

I’m done with tears.

It’s time I said goodbye.

*

I truly enjoyed

the time we had

but it’s coming to an end.

It takes more 

than my wishful thinking

and rifts you never cared to mend

to earn the right

and the honor

of being called my friend.

~○~

08/18/17

AGP

For the record, I’d like to reassure everyone I am okay… I only finished this up today.  I was having a bit of a pity-party when I began writing this poem, but by the time I finished it today, I had come to the startling realization that I’ve been holding on to quite a few ‘friends’ who let me go a long time past, I just wasn’t willing or able to accept it because I wasn’t ready, and I’d done nothing wrong.  This was a purging of sorts.

Finally Loving Me (FLM)

Is there peace

inside your soul

or do you lack

what makes you whole?

Inside of me

I have found

a sense of self

and a love profound.

You, also,

may have these gifts:

a soothed soul,

and healed rifts.

Ash will be ash

and dust will be dust-

the Source of all things

lies inside all of us.

A grain of faith,

about a mustard seed will do,

and heaven on Earth

will flow to you.

Don’t take my word

give it a try…

With the right leap of faith

your Spirit will fly.
6/6/17agp

Love Me

Love me

for cooking for you.

Love me

because I washed your laundry.

Love me

because I brought home a paycheck.

Love me

when the world is out to get me.

Love me

when I’m at my worst.

Love me

even when I’m irritating and unreasonable. 

Love me

because I can’t love myself.

(I) love me

for cooking for you.

(I) love me

because I washed your laundry.

(I) love me

because I brought home a paycheck.

(I) love me

when the world is out to get me.

(I) love me

when I’m at my worst.

(I) love me

even when I’m irritating and unreasonable. 

(I) love me

because if I can’t love myself,

who can?
03♡May♡’17