Confessions (Part 8) 

I’m afraid to be too amazing, because my brilliance was used as a club against my brothers, to make them feel bad about themselves.

“Why can’t you be more like your sister?”

Great.  Thanks.  Now the better I do the worse they’ll feel about themselves.

Oh, yes… now that’s a belief I am happy to reveal and release!  I had no idea I even felt that way!  In fact, I always used it as an opportunity to feel bad about myself, because in typical moments of sibling rivalry, I would use it as a club against them, too.  

I admit, at times I have used my gift for evil purposes.  I am not proud of this, but I am learning to let go of my guilt over it, because I was just a stupid kid.

A brilliant stupid kid who grew into a brilliant stupid broken adult.

Part 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 (coming soon!) (If ‘soon’ arrives, and I forget to update the links, somebody please be kind enough to let me know in the comments so I can correct it!)

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Author: Amanda

I'm married to my best friend, we live in Virginia, USA, and have one cat together. I am literally going through the process of developing my Self. Until recently, I had no concept of who I was, what I wanted, or even that I didn't know these things. That's all changed, and as a result, I am changing at a rapid pace. Try and keep up.

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